You are laughing and happy and joking around as if nothing at all had happened." Well, what did you think you would find?" Considering that the love o... your life, the woman you married, has just left you, I thought I would find you as broken up and miserable as I always was. During all those visits I made to you after breaking up with my past loves. I expected to find you depressed and crying in your beer, or mad and puncing holes in the walls. But no-O-o! You have to be different. All well. She awoke to find her hips covered, presumably by one of the morning Nurses. She thought to complain to someone about the evenings intrusion, but something inside her let the day pass. Her self esteem was still in recovery and it left her confused. Was she flattered or horrified by last nights events? Certainly she was not OK that someone took this sort of liberty? She waited the day out with a feeling she could not describe, a mix of fear and curiosity. When the door opened this time, she was. All gone. Replaced with nothingness. Maybe one day I’ll again appreciate what we had. Right now, I just hurt so much. Sorry. That wasn’t very fair. Some kinda man I turned out to be. Just a 58 year-old has-been without a future. Fuck, all married people lose a spouse. Eventually. Some sooner than others. Most everybody else seems to be able to cope. What’s wrong with me? God but it hurts. I glance up at the sky. Huge, dark cumulus clouds block the sun and promise yet another day of relentless. I suggested that she just stay here at the house and when I finish the job, I could drive her to the motel to meet up with her family. That is if her parents don't respond back with a call or text to their daughter. When she agreed I told her to just relax in her bedroom or wherever and that I will find her when I'm about to leave.After three hours of flood cutting and treating the structure of the kitchen and the final clean-up, I put a couple of frozen dinners in the microwave to heat and.