With his words hanging in the air unanswered, he looked nervous and vulnerable. Like a kid who’d plucked up the courage to ask impoverished parents ...or a Christmas bike like all the other kids have, waiting painfully, knowing he’s either going to be elated or shattered and heart-broken. His courage in asking the question thrown back in his face, to double or triple his pain.The moment seemed to go on forever, like some bizarre Mexican stand-off, as the three of us looked at each other, each. Julie felt like she had been given an electrical shock, she could hardly draw breathe. Tina’s nipples were pressing into her chest. She whispered in Julie’s ear, ‘I’ve done this before, let me take the lead, Jules, it will be over soon.’Julie allowed herself to be directed to the settee; she walked as if in a dream, her legs shook, she was trembling all over, but still she was so, so, so fucking turned on. Part of her couldn’t wait. Part of her wanted this gorgeous, young woman to introduce. I don't know if she was expecting me but she greeted me almost immediately, grabbing the arm that was draped across her waist and pulling me close against her back."Mmm, this is nice," she said. "I was wondering if maybe you weren't coming." She giggled and added, "But then I guess maybe that's what you were doing. Were you nice to her?" I was practicing my control," I said. Something was wrong, like the room was out of focus, but that wasn't it either. There was a feeling of unseen motion all. At the end of the alley it makes a sharp turn and opens to a courtyard that is about 10 by 16 foot and surrounded by brick walls from the factory next door.As I get to the end of the alley I hear a girl’s voice say OK who wants to go next, as I enter the courtyard I see a girl sitting on a milk crate her back to me and I see a young boy pulling up the zipper to his fly and another pulling down his pants and two more standing watching. All of them panic as I enter! When the girl turns to look at.