You don't really even have a past yet. Life is as wide open as you want. And it only goes forward. No back button."Yeah, I know, nice platitudes. But ... did sort of mean it. Regret can be paralyzing, forgiving yourself difficult. We get stuck in emotional ruts."I'm trying to go forward. I dumped my old friends because they all just know me as that dope slut. I had a new friend but I screwed up and pushed him away." She gave me a puppy-dog look to drive home the obvious point. "I want to connect. You like that?’ I purr a ‘yyyeeesss.’ The Commander kisses up and down my neck, over my shoulder, then back up again as he covers my eyes with the blindfold. From nearby I hear a door opening and shuffling of feet then, after which the door closes. I then hear footsteps coming closer to me and I start quivering in anticipation of the unknown plan the Commander has for me. The Commander, sensing my anticipation, leans in again and whispers ‘I love you my darling, enjoy’ and removes his the. She is adored in gems and rubies, a gold bikini top, and what I best can describe as a grass skirt, like the ladies wear when he land in Hawaii. She's got dark, shoulder length hair, and two of the most beautiful brown eyes ever. She slounched back, crossing her legs, and she looked me up and down. I could only wonder what she thought of me. She had these studs tom perform what ever desire she wanted. What would she want with a guy like me?"Bring him to my quarters!" she said, both commanding. "Look, the string of the things kept your butt plug inside." "Yes, sir" He takes off my thongs and takes out the butt plug. "How about that bigger toy?" "Please, sir, please fill my ass, I beg you." "So eager! My little whore, you're so obedient." "Thank you, sir."Out of the four butt plugs, the five balls was the smallest one and the size of my fist is the biggest one. He takes the second biggest one, which is about three inches diameter at the widest point. It looks like a tear, at the.