And if I was serious about not caring what people thought anymore, then this was definitely the way to do it. Walk into a party with the hottest girl ...n town on my arm. I wasn't trying to be a lesbian, I was just a guy, and if people couldn't tell the difference it wasn't gonna be my fault.Now all I had to do was keep from pulling a Henry and chickening out."What about all that, uh, keeping a secret stuff?" Josh asked me.I laughed nervously and looked at Jane in the dashboard light. "I guess I. Mera kam khatam hone ko tha or abhi dopehar ke 2.30 baj rahe the. abhi hamara office khali tha me apne vale pc me game khelane laga thabhi vo mere pass aake bethi or mujse kuch computer file ke bare me janakari lene lagi. me bhi use bata raha tha. tabhi usne mujse vidio file ke bare me bataya ki uske pc me vidio file run nahi ho rahi he. mene usse file ke bare me bataya to kahane lagi ki use file ke liye koi player chahiye. mene all file player ke bare me use bataya or apne pen drive se use. Almost as pretty as Mary over there.’ Jerry raised his eyebrows. ‘Honest! Her face is round and her cheeks are touched with pink, just on the points of her cheekbones.’ I demonstrated the spot on Jerry’s face. He laughed. ‘And her lips! Oh, her lips, Jerry! They seem to be the most perfect lips in all the world.’ Jerry puckered up, but I ignored him. Looking down into my glass, I sighed. ‘I just wish that I was, well, not the man I am, I guess. If I had money and didn’t have to work, I’d go to. I agreed. I needed to be with her and I needed to play chess. She said she hoped I could sleep better tonight and I told her I hoped so too.I was getting better in the sense that I wasn’t crying as often, but I was certainly harboring dark thoughts. As much as I wanted to move my relationship with Jennifer forward, it was too dangerous to do that. I was still being tossed about in a stormy sea of emotions. I’d be curious to hear what Doctor Mercer said about that.I worked until 5:00pm then.