I was pretty sure he was if he was 2 years younger than Jason…but Jason was pretty young. Anyway, I couldn’t believe that I had just agreed to suc... off 2 guys – one a complete stranger. With each passing day, I got more and more apprehensive – but also excited about what was going to take place. The day arrived and I called Jason on my way home from dropping off my wife. I told him I would be home in about 10 minutes. He said that he and Eddie could be there in about 20 minutes. OMG – I was. I had built too many fail-safes into the program to hopethat I had missed anything. I knew I hadn't.As soon as I accepted the fact that I had stupidly trapped myself inside myown machine, and that I was going to transform myself, I was okay. I knewthat after the programs were finished, the door would open and I would justreprogram my body back to the original me.I looked around inside the tank while I waited for the first diagnostics tocomplete. I had programmed a fantasy of mine so was kind of. We knew it was time to really talk about what we were doing one Saturday night as we were lying in bed with Louisa between us.She turned to Wallace, stroked his cheek, and said, “I love you.”She then turned to me, stroked my cheek, and said the same thing.Without even looking at each other, Wallace and I said, “We love you, too.”“Wallace,” I said, “I don’t want to play the game anymore.”Louisa sat up in a panic.“You don’t want me?” she cried.I took her in my arms, patting her back gently.“No,. Jennifer looked relaxed. I said, "Jennifer, will you talk to Olivia?" Of course." She picked up the phone and Rachel and I went to the den.Rachel said, "I think she's resigned to the worst case. She understands the odds. Even if he is rescued, she doesn't know what she wants to do with him. Until he left the country, he was a good match for her. She felt abandoned when he left. Daniel essentially left her alone for years and then Charles signed on to be away for two years. I think her picker is.