Become whole. Yet, within my soul, I know that that option is not. The flow of self-depreciating sadness moving across each numb nerve with the quiet...coldness of ice, numbing my heart to what I have been part of, have seen. As tempting, in its own way, as the power I could open myself to. I choose. There really was not much of a choice, the decision made in an instant. I rein in my mind and flow, not outward as a waterfall, but inward, sinking into the black hole that is the remnant of my. I would even find ways to suggest going over even when he didn’t want to, Soon, I started just showing up alone.I remember the first step I took in trying to get my friends Grandfather to notice me. I was so nervous, I’m sure it was just me, but I could feel the sexual energy in the room. I felt light headed and dizzy in anticipation of what I was about to do. It wasn’t a great plan, but it at least was a plan. I was going to spill something on his crotch, then fall to my knees as if in an. Her robe didn’t slide with her and her butt is exposed to me.I slid over and up beside her. I pressed down even harder along her shoulder blades and back muscles.I rubbed down toward the middle of her back and she moaned ... mumbling... “that feels so good and relaxing ... keep doing that, Billy. Do my back all over just like that...”I rubbed my hands on the small of her back and she squirmed a bit and slid up more, I saw the top of her buttocks clearly and the start of her split.My hands felt. ‘Well if that’s the case then I’m not closed,’ he said, turning the key and pushing the door open again. ‘We’ll just close the door behind us so we won’t be disturbed.’ Amber was so caught up in the exchange that she was in the shop before she looked around. She realized with a start that it was a jewelry store specializing in custom-designed necklaces, rings and bracelets. Still holding Sam’s hand, she felt herself being propelled toward the back counter of the U-shaped shop. In a case before.