They had me open it and look through it. No problems.With this new ability to study and think on, I still had to finish the computer program I was wor...ing on. I wanted to know who had tried to crash into my computer system. It had been a very sophisticated program.I still had time left on my vacation, so I devoted a huge amount of that time to creating the new program. Levy and John had helped immensely with the math for the programs I did in college for all three of us; but now I needed. This experience was now the same and I tried instinctively to stand up and look around for some distant light out of the window.My mind kept trying to tell me I was still dreaming as I remembered sleep walking as a kid. Suddenly I felt what I thought was a hand on me and I shuddered. I may have cried out but I couldn’t be sure, still sleep groggy as I fell away on to my backside. The fall felt almost like infinity, that timelessness; it was familiar but haunting because I’d experienced that in. Ab aap isse wo kaam pura kar lo main jake sota hoon.Mom: Nai beta, abhi nai. Chal main bhi soti hoon.Me: Nai mom, kar lo na. Nahi to mujhe kharab lagega ki maine aapko rok diya. Aap karo main room jata hoon, main aapko disturb nai karunga.Phir main wapas room chala gaya. Door se dekha to mom mujhe hi dekh rahi thi. Mujhe laga ki yadi main door se unko dekhta raha to mom kuch nahi karengi. Isliye main bed pe sone chala gaya.Phir aise hi kuch dino tak chalta raha. Mom ab baigan se nai mere laye. Not a good idea. I fingered the beads on my Vietnam service necklace and moved my mind to a place with neither past nor future. The eternal now was all about me.“Relax, my friend,” I whispered as I pushed worry to the center of my thoughts and acknowledged the terror within me.Fear is a useful servant, but it is a lousy master. Once I accepted the fact I was scared beyond words, an icy calm stilled the trembling of my hands and mind, and I was no longer a refugee from reason.From the far edge.