Rather than pretend to be noble and strong, I allowed the tears to fall. There didn't seem to be any reason to resist the sadness that covered my life...like a funeral pall. In the past, in both my lives, I usually – well, eventually - fought off the darkness as it closed in on me. After gaining and losing everything, then gaining and losing everything again, there seemed to be no point in fighting any more. If Rebecca and Colleen could not wrap their minds around this, then I had to give them. As usual, I was wearing my ‘blues’- loose cotton pants and top, like you would see in any hospital, and I was enjoying watching Maria as she bustled about the kitchen. Her housekeeper’s uniform was stretching in all sorts of interesting places and I was having a lovely time.I could feel a bulge forming in my pants so I was careful to stay seated with the table providing a degree of cover. I didn’t want to cause any trouble, and the last thing I needed was for Maria to see my bulge and shout her. Like most belts, it goes around your waist. These straps go down the back of...” Jake froze mid-sentence. The rest of the sentence was back of your ass. He couldn’t say that to her though. He just stood there. Then he had an idea. He quickly worked the straps and began speaking again. “these two loops go around your legs like a pair of pants. Then you put the belt around your waist. Then tighten it all up.” He held out the loops for her to step in. when she did he was relieved he had held it. Looking down, I realise that it is a long skinny vibrator. I pick it up tentatively, feeling myself even more aroused. “Would you put that in, and keep it in till I get back babe? I’d really appreciate it,” he says in that seductively sexy voice. My breathing is really heavy now, I know he can tell that I am getting really aroused. I swivel around in my chair to look up at him. He smiles down at me with his cocky grin. “Well babe? Would you do that? For me?” “Jon… I need to work on this…” I.