After putting up with this for awhile, I finally stepped out a couple of times. But in both instances, the risk, the drama, and the problems that went...along with the affairs just made me realize that with kids, family, and a pretty easygoing lifestyle, it wasn't worth it. So I accepted the fact I needed to take care of it on my own, and became very interested in late night chat rooms, dirty discussions, porn and a lot of masturbation. I enjoyed it immensely, and it became a daily (and sometimes. Und so halte ich grad noch ein wenig länger aus..obwohl ich würge. Plötzlich zieht er mich an den Haaren hoch und legt meinen Kopf in den Nacken. Schon klatscht mir die Wichse vom ersten Typen in mein Gesicht. Ich bin zur lebendige Wichsvorlage verkommen. Um die Männer noch mehr zu reizen, hole ich meine Titten aus der Bluse und knete sie. Nun steht einer so nah, dass ich seinen Lümmel ablecken könnte. Schnell und hart wichst er sich. Und trifft mich prompt ins Auge. Der nächste kniet neben mir. I turned13 a week later, and while it was supposed to be a big deal, I dismissedit as just another day. Teri helped keep me from imploding, and mom letme get dressed at home once in a while, but just seeing all of the girlsin school reminded me of the summer past, and all of the fun I had as agirl. That went on for months, well, until Christmas anyway, before momfinally sat me down for a mother son talk.Just a few words from her set me on a tirade, and I found myselfdemanding that I be allowed. He gently squeezed her hands back. "Thanks, Eleanor." Don't thank me! Thank your Maker!"She was as excited as he was. She bounced in her chair."I've got an idea. Once a month our church does an old fashioned Book of Common Prayer Service with all the old hymns and they're all in standard harmony. Daddy always sings the bass part so you could come and stand next to each other and belt it out together."Reg sobered up immediately and in doing so reverted to taciturnity."No." Why not?" Busting in.