Right, we can begin to develop the skills of compassionate relationship. We stop judging people and start relating to them instead. We recognize, firs... and foremost, that we’re not in a relationship to focus on how well the other person is learning their lessons, but rather to focus on learning our own.The ego defends against love, not fear. Pain in relationships can be perversely comfortable pain, in that is one we know. We’re used to it. I once heard a tape by Ram Dass, an American spiritual. She is like a porn star whore and a nympho. And she wants it in a hard, fast and dominating way.My wife is a masochist (getting pleasure by being dominated). So, that is why it is hard for me to fulfill her needs. But what hurts me much is that she doesn’t complain about it. And thus, I am obliged to satisfy her sexual thirst whatever be the means. Things became worse after I watched a porn video one day. I was shocked and extremely excited when I saw the huge dicks and the paining, moaning,. I dont like tan lines so the smaller the better.With this being a Tuesday and temps in the upper 90's I wasnt really surprised to be the only person at the pool. I looked around good to make sure no one would notice and adjusted my suit to where it barely covered my nipples and my bush. I must have dosed off a little because I was startled when I heard a couple of trucks pull up and park just on the other side of the pool fence. I heard the doors slam and voices of men walking away toward the. True it could only carry two of us at a time, but Dad didn't care to ride it much anyways. He always enjoyed walking up to the campsite rather than "taking the sissy's" way up there as he called it. In this case, it was a double play on Sissy's name ... so we didn't mind. Besides, it was fun and we liked riding it.Dad got home at the normal time and we could tell there was something wrong. We asked him what it was."I can't go fishing with you two for a while," he said, "I've got to fly to San.