It was easier preventing this heartache if I didn’t get attached to anyone to begin with. You see, Ashley really wasn’t supposed to happen, I didn...��t want to fall in love with anyone, I just wanted to be alone. She changed all that and all of the hurt that had been in my life went right out the window. In some way or another, I wanted to love again and I wanted to be loved too, and for the first time in probably forever I allowed myself to trust someone. But anyways, she made doing ‘stuff’. " Yeah, I can see that," Jill said, "they really were an impressive bunch, weren't they?" They weren't the largest private railroad in the world for nothing," he pointed out, "And they deserved the name 'Standard Railroad Of The World.' Pennsy overbuilt and over did everything. They built much of their own equipment. Their main electric passenger locomotive was the GG-1, and they went into service in 1934." They were considered the most beautiful engines ever built," he continued, "And. Monica now thought about what she would do with the rest of her life, and the only thing that occurred to her was that she needed a new daddy ... a sugar daddy. Who could that be, though? Did men still do that for ladies if they had the cash to spend on them? Monica sure hoped so, because she didn’t have as many life skills as she used to have. She didn’t know as much as she used to know, but she knew enough to know that fact itself.There was another problem, too. She was pregnant and confident. "J's mother caught me up in a hug to calm the shaking that had come overme. When I had calmed down, she pushed me out to hold me at arm's lengthand looked me in the eye. "Yes, J is going to be a girl and she must tryharder because of that."The DespairA couple of weeks after I'd realized that J was rather more of a girlthan a boy, J's dad came home earlier than usual. He didn't expect anyoneto be at home so he sat in the kitchen and put a kettle for some tea whenhe suddenly realized water was.