I’ve always had trouble sleeping alone and after all these years of marriage, I’ve long forgotten how hard it is. I miss the warmth of Bobbie besi...e me. I already warned her that when I’m out hiking, I wouldn’t have any service. I will be unable to reach anyone so she shouldn't worry. The early morning rays shine through the windows in golden streams, filling the room, lifting my spirit and my hopes of making peace with nature. The night before, I packed the last of the things I would need on. Wind from the west-northwest was blowing at 15-20 miles an hour with gusts to 30 mph. Ed and I found that you could throw 8-12 yards deep into the wind if you rifled the ball and kept it low. If you put any loft on the ball the wind carried it God knows where.I tried catching a couple deep balls thrown into the wind. It was an adventure. The wind buffeted the ball and blew it every which way. I felt like I was fielding a punt on the worst days of my career at Penn State. Throwing the ball with. But tosacrifice yourself for nothing at all. That's just stupid. I'd sit thereweekend after weekend alone after she'd canceled another visit wondering forwhat and for whom I was even living." It's difficult to make your life mean anything to anyone else when it meansnothing to you."Marcia flashed back to the darkest of those dark days. Without realizing it,she had folded her arms protectively against her body. It was as if agraveyard wind had blown in from the past. Marcia kept the insides of. Paul was paying attention to the movie and missed Carly and Stephen's actions, but Paige did not fail to notice. A brief burst of jealousy faded and was replaced by a desire to do something similar to Paul."Do you see what your wife and your son are doing?" Paige whispered to Paul, who glanced in their direction. Carly's nuzzling had progressed to a few quick kisses on her son's lips."Is it bothering you, Sweetheart?" Paul whispered back to Paige. She was silent for a few seconds before she.