A quick catalog of the mostexpedient methods of killing myself ran through my mind. I knew of nogun nearby, and besides, that was too easy. I'd find a...knife in thekitchen and open my throat.I rose and turned from her corpse, walked slowly across the room, thenpaused at the door with my hand on the knob. Now that I'd decided tokill myself, my mind had run on to other channels, was desperatelytrying to find some way to make it better, to fix it. But you don't fixdeath.You also don't kill somebody. When she came out of the bathroom, I was awestruck to find her in the sky blue nighty which she wore the first time when we had connected. She told me that she wanted to give me a surprise. I was shy for a moment and then I walked up to her and hugged her. Then, I looked into her eyes and gave her a long and deep kiss, while I was kissing her, my right hand was squeezing her breasts and my left hand was on her butt. We both were aroused. She started caressing my dick on top of my jeans and then. I made sure to tell them I only needed about the last three minutes of each guy, I didn't need the entire gangbang on film. And to their credit, each did just as they were told. Some guys wanted to be sucked first, and I now had amazing skills. Some guys wanted their ass licked. Didn't matter to me, as long as they shot every drop of their manhood deep inside my womb. You ever see the Discovery Channel and see like dogs doing it? How fast they go and it's over so quick? Some of these guys were. She explained that she loved the fact that i loved her panties and that she was even turned on that i loved the smell of her pussy so much. but she couldnt understand why i had this panty fetish.I told her that when we stopped having intercourse a few years ago i really could;nt get over my love for her pussy. I wanted to respect her wish and her desire to not have intercourse because she had pain and didnt want to do it any more. That was why i desired her panties..after a lot of back and.