It was my choice.I had to choose between Chase and Amber.I had to choose between Christina and Tony.This isn't fair!I felt like I was locked into this...moment. This was how it was alwaysgoing to go down. The guardian angel knew. They tried talking me out offailing for Chase. They also told me I'd have to live with theconsequences if I didn't do anything.As I took my first step, I knew. I couldn't live with the consequences.Watching Amber die again. Watching Cindy mourn again. Watching. Under normal circumstances, maybe I’d spend more time on my tits. But I’m being impatient tonight. Bring sure not to move too much to arouse suspicion, I slowly push my sweatpants down my legs, until they’re around my ankles. I can’t see my panties, as I’m still covered with the blanket, but I know there’s a spreading wet spot on the front. Over my panties, I rub slowly up and down and have to bite my tongue to keep from moaning softly. Eagerly, I gather the front of my panties and pull them up. "Hey Steph, have a good weekend?" I asked."Yeah, I did, we had fun Saturday night and it was nice to wake up to Ryan beside me, rather than to my screaming siblings!" she said with a smile."Look, no blush!" I said with a grin."Stop it, you big lummox," she said, hitting me on the arm. "What about you, did you have a good time with your ladies?" Vicky and I had a very nice evening," I said.Steph looked at me as if I was an idiot and then said "Amanda, Jessica and I know about you and the twins. “I don't even care anymore, I really don't. I'm not gonna be careless or anything like leave my panties in the bed we both sleep in, or slip up and say something in front of him, but I'm not gonna sacrifice what little time I get with you to keep him from finding out. If he finds out, then he finds out, he'll take it however he takes it, and if he disowns us, it won't stop us from being together.” I just lay there for a minute, soaking up everything she said. I could see the intensity in her.