He loves me and will always love me ? even like this. Won'the?There was a gentle knocking at the door. "Are you alright?" Jan Randasked, concern in hi... voice."Yes," Jamie called back, noting that her voice had gotten even alittle softer, a little more feminine. "I'll be out in a minute." Are you sure?" Yes."She stood. There was no way that she could let Jan see her like this?her eyes all puffy from crying. She slipped her pajamas back on, fussedwith her hair as much as she could, put the toilet. I don’t want to be “her indoors”, shuffling around in tunic tops and A-line skirts, baking endless cakes for “good causes”, popping round for coffee and chatter about houses, gardens, and “how wonderfully Nathan is doing at his new school”. I want to be tall and elegant with platinum blond hair falling about my shoulders. I want to be the Jean Harlow of his office; foundation, powder, eyeliner, mascara, eye shadow and lipstick all perfectly combining to display the charm of my youth. I want to. We met with Thomas Emerson, Dale Masters, George Ulrey, Abbey Castile, and Sandra Toomey. Co-authors who weren’t able to be at the interview were Janice Bowers and Herbert Simpson. The co-authors conducted a group interview because they took time out of their busy days to meet with the media and we edited the interview to capture the most important parts.Media representative: “Mr Thomas Emerson, you were the lead author?”Emerson: “Yes, sir, more like the organizer and shepherd. Everyone did. Being alone with my thoughts can be very unpleasant when I'm so preoccupied with the fear that the end of my once happy marriage is less than forty-eight hours away.The mailman came at a little after two. I was tempted to go out to the street in only my shoes just to liven up the day. I went so far as to open the door and look out through the storm door to see how many people might notice if I did. I decided it was too many. I put my shorts and a t-shirt on and went out to the mailbox.There.