"Now go," suited man said and the Dobermans ran off.After what happened with the dogs and the burly men by my side, Ifound myself sinking deeper into ...eing Sandra. I didn't even want tobe Michael. I wanted to be protected by these men from those dogs. Icould smell their masculinity and it felt safe.Why am I acting this way? I want you to know the truth but when Iread what I've written here to you I wonder why I am more Sandra nowthan Michael. I know he's here, but it is hard to find him. I didn’t care how it looked as long as it functioned right now. Besides, it seemed like I was going to have plenty of deckhands for a while.Robbie loved the boat, looking over the railing while I kept a firm grip on him. Nat didn’t like it at all, it was too high off the water to suit her. She went from Julie to Carrie, clinging. They finally took the kids downstairs for lunch, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with milk and a snack cake.Sarah stayed up top with me. She hugged me, kissed me. I was sent out into the garden under strict instructions to keep out of the way until called for, the door bell rang and I was pushed out into the garden, good job it was a warm summer day so I slumped into the deck chair. After ten minutes or so I got nosey and crept back into the house, I could hear them talking, my wife asking about the job, I peeked through the door, they were both facing away from me so I had a good view of them both, he was a well built man in his thirties, my wife is in. And I don’t intend to do anything that will affect you negatively but I was very angry this morning when you came in late again. I came to your office to request the files you are working on and I couldn’t find you. I sat at your desk and waited for more than 20 minutes, and yet you didn’t show up. This is the 3rd morning, Joe…and such acts can’t go unpunished because if I allow it to, these other people will think I have a soft spot for you, Joe.Joe loved how she was talking to him, but would.