Yes, I've been on a self-renewal program – psychoanalysis, exercise, yoga, meditation, and all sorts of other things. I got so that I didn't like 'm..., ' so I created a new one. I'm still in process, however. I love myself now, unlike all those years we were together. I'm sorry I was such a shrew and so indecisive." Well, I congratulate you. I like this new you ... it's more like the one I fell in love with twenty-five years ago."Megan smiled and squeezed my arm to her body to thank me for the. Lingering with the blade before each cut, I make sure that her anticipation and fear is heightened. Her screams are like music to me and together we are making a symphony of her deconstruction.With her bones stripped, her hand are cut off and added to the pile. The girl that only an hour ago was crawling around trying to tempt me into sex is now an armless, legless torso begging to be butchered. This is what she was always meant to be.My erection has only grown harder while butchering and I. ’ ‘Going to Nevada on business so I’m parked with my aunt and uncle for the summer. Mom and Dad will pick me up before school starts at the end of August.’ Lifting my head in understanding I typed a few more sentences then shoved the tablet computer aside. ‘I’ve been parked here for the past couple weeks and haven’t even seen more than a few hundred feet of the place since last Friday. Want take a walk?’ ‘Sure.’ She helped me carry the tablet and papers up to my room then we walked. I called her over and bought her a drink. Her name was Rosa. We settled on the price for my tryst. She led me to a room in back of the saloon. I followed her down a dark alley and into a dimly lighted room with a bed and bathroom. The room was clean and well taken care of.She spoke a little English and I was able to tell her that this was to be my first time. When I told her that I was a virgin, she took on a certain glow, almost happy. She was surprised that I was a virgin. Most of the people.