I drank a lot then." It probably helped," I said."Probably. Again I didn't realize why, or that I needed my girlfriend there to enjoy sex with him. Be...ause she always was, you know? But my girlfriend insisted I'd gotten too drunk to remember taking them. Thing is, I'm pretty sure I did." Your girlfriend replaced your pills?" I asked."Probably. Maybe, after all these years, I'll ask her again and she'll admit it." You still see her?" asked Helena."She's my soul mate, Helena." That I understand,". We collapsed in each other’s arms, for the first time in three weeks satisfied.A while later mom walked in to my room, she had a tray of food and was dressed in the costume Amy had picked out, “My lift will be here shortly, eat your dinner then make sure you both shower, your dad will be home soon, and if you all like you can watch my show, can you set up your laptop on the big screen tv Paul, your dad has the pass word.” She commented on Amy’s torn tights and pretended to tell us both off for. I had an instant feeling for her and just wanted to be as close to her as possible. She was comfortable both in sari & dress and carried herself with amazing ease, somewhere she was also aware of the effect she had on the men around. But as usual, her husband was no match for her, very dull & ordinary. I managed to have some conversation but had to leave soon after the function and didn’t have much contact after that either.But those memories & feelings remained with me ever after my marriage. The Lord allowed me to fix my mistake, I was blessed. Our world was filled with work, crops, family, making one end of life stretch to the other. Each day was sweet and fine, Sarah and I watched as our children, then grandchildren grew, worked and played just as we had done. As the years went by, the Sun made deep lines on her face, the same was true of me. Not once did I ever look at her and see anything but beauty, though. If anything, the maturity made her even more beautiful. Some evenings.