He was drunk, and I waseager to get in his pants because I knew he was straight. He didn't let medo anything the first couple of times I tried, but fi...ally he gave in!Before getting to that, guys are horny before they're "straight." If a guysees a way to get off and doesn't have to worry about anyone else knowing,he's probably interested. This is especially true when guys are involvedwith girls who don't like to give head or only want to have sex once ortwice a week. Guys would much rather be. Hank started to pull the food out of his pockets "you missed dinner, I thought you might be hungry, Nat" Surprised Natalie said she had totally forgotten about dinner. then thanked Hank for thinking of her. As she sat eating a roll, Hank told her all about his pony and about Keebler and SheringCross. They giggled as Hank described Keebler running the stables like a pudgy little general ordering everyone about, even with cookie crumbs on his jacket. Sending a sleepy Hank off to bed with a hug. Karen was pleased to see that so many of those stories involved being open and honest about what they were doing because she had secretly felt shame about some of it.Once the girls got home from school, they stripped and removed their wigs. Karen made them act as hostesses and be friendly to the clients. They took turns greeting people at the door. The greeter had to get down on her knees and ask if they could remove their shoes. Karen wanted them to kiss their feet, but they refused to kiss. I’m so tired. My soul is drained, and there’s nothing left to give. Nothing left to bolster my spirits but sheer will alone. I have the undesirable ability to shut down emotions. I try not to flip that switch, because it can’t be turned back on. I will take so much punishment before I do it, because if there’s any chance, any tiny .000001% of a chance that it will get better, I want to hang on. I’m tenacious. I don’t know how to give up. I refuse to believe I can’t fix things no matter how bad.