I’d never had to think about what I was and why I didn’t ever want ‘relations’ of any sort - other than what was about to happen, i.e. worship...ing in person. By then I loved the thought of girls knowing I was a wanker and calling me that, which Miss Melanie did. However, when She said “wouldn’t you at least want to try it, it would be an experience for you” (She was an escort as well as a model, and I guess She wasn’t squeamish – She’d seen me in my rainmac a few times, seen the spunk stains on. She was uncomfortable saying those things to me. "It's the watching that gets me hot. Do you think I'm too weird?" I did think she was too weird. How could anybody enjoy the watching more than the doing? I guess at the age I was then, I thought that the physical act was far more exciting than mental stimulation could ever be."Do you just get hot when you see other people making out?" No, I can get real hot from thinking about stuff, or when I touch myself while I'm thinking about stuff. Debbie,. She must have spent all day at the tanning salon and the beauty shop. She did look good, but behind the eyes there was something going on. She was dressed in a low cut dress, that showed skin to just above her naval, and was so short that, if she sat down, she would have to do so with both hands on the hem to keep it from going around her waist. She had on 4-inch heels, which raised her to an inch above my 5'10" and did look good.As we walked into the room there were three other couples, and. It didn't give me much pleasure, and I was so nervous at the experience of someone else touching me. It only lasted a few minutes before he stopped and asked if I was ready. "Yes Sir." He then took off his clothes, and for the first time I saw a naked man. He was large and hairless, with a small cock. He said it was about 5.5", and it was thin and perfect for what I wanted. He layed down on the bed, and I began to oral him. I didn't really know what I was doing, but he said it was great and.