The difference now, though, is that he’s doubting himself. He feels like he’s unsure of himself, having been unaware of that damned Governors prio... relationship with Rafael. I’m betting that if he’d known in advance, they would have done things much differently tonight. My man needs me and I’m NOT going to let him go through this alone.I could never do that to him.The problem is ... I’m just as conflicted as he is! About the SAME THINGS! I guess that’s one of the downfalls of being completely. "I walked out of her office feeling like the king of the world and looking forward to where this could go. We e-mailed a few times and set a date. We would go to her place since she was just a town over, maybe ten minutes away. I followed her home and we went into her basement apartment. As luck would have it, she had her period, but said she wanted to give me a blow job. She asked me if I liked them. I told Mary, "The truth is, I never had one. Yes, I've had girls suck on my cock but I never. I showed her some things very quickly but then said she’d probably better go to the party. We kissed again as I rubbed one of her tits. The kiss broke off and she went downstairs.About an hour later Amie was standing in the doorway telling me she had asked my wife if it was okay to go upstairs and talk with me. She had placed her order and even though the party was going strong she felt a bit out of place because she didn’t know the rest of the women there and everyone seemed to be friends. My. Sandy and I had not made plans for any signals this time but I stayed in my room just the same. I busied myself reading a book until I heard a tap on my door. I came out and found the girls in the kitchen talking while Sandy scurried around making supper.I said "Hi Beth, how are you doing?"She looked at me with big eyes and said "I thought there were no males left anywhere." Well, there's still at least one. I have been laying low because I didn't want to get grabbed up. It's very important.