Why are we going to Harrisburg then, if you are not clear about your relationship”? Dev was a bit angry. “I asked you, what happened to you”.“...ake it easy, Dev; if you cannot help, at least be kind to imagine my situation”. Mahmood told Dev in a meager tone. “If you must not know”, Mahmood continued; “I am gay and I just fucked a man in the bathroom stall”.“Really”, Dev was stunned.“I am not k**ding and it was extremely hot sex too”. Mahmood said with confidence, “He was hung and very forceful. I also had myself checked for STDs. I was so stupid. Somehow, I wanted to hurt you and make you pay for Justin’s death. That’s the reason I wouldn’t go for counseling. I know it was childish but I wanted to hurt you so much. My mom and dad came up and have been staying with me for the last two weeks. It’s good that they’re retired and have been able to devote so much time to me. They wouldn’t let me have time for self-pity and gradually I began to understand what my grief for Justin was doing. Frankly, I didn't want to even bring that up, as I was not sure how you would feel about it. I have hurt you so badly the last few days, Victoria, I didn't want to take the chance of hurting you some more." Victoria smiled at me and gave me a big hug."How would you feel about it, Patrick?" Victoria asked."I wish I knew that's what it was. I would have no problems whatsoever about that. They have been so good to us in that way and I certainly wouldn't begrudge them the same opportunity to. Chris opened up the door and said "Your tardy you know!" kind of stern. I laughed a little and said "sorry!"He just said "you'll probably have to do a bit of detention later" and let me in.His room was set up with a desk facing away from a window that was looking out at a sort of playground, there were basketball and tennis courts out there. There were three chairs set up across from the desk with TV trays in front like a sort of classroom. There was a couch next to the side wall. Sitting there.