I also told him he didn't measure up to other men I'd known and that he'd never really satisfied me in bed. This made it shrivel up even smaller. He w...s so totally defenseless -- so completely under my power. "Mental castration" Julie called it. I loved it! Being able to do this to a man, especially one who had hurt and betrayed me in the past, was intoxicating. It gave me a rush, got me hot.After this it was easy to get him to play dress up in my clothes. He seemed relieved at no longer having. It's you who never calls a girl." That isn't true. I would have called you sooner, but I didn't have your phone number, besides, I heard that you were busy with someone else." Who? And who told you that I was?" Maybe I heard it from some of the girls at your school. Maybe it was Jane that told me, I don't remember." Have you been good, or have you been out exploring on your own?" I've been fishing, but I had to throw them all back, because they were too little for me to keep." I heard something. I finally shocked the heck out of Ben when I told him I was pregnant.Like a typical man, he was flustered and blurted, “How did that happen?”I giggled and said, “Well, we had sex...”Ben interrupted, “ ... But I thought I couldn’t have children.”I smiled at Ben and explained, “I guess it’s one of the many miracles that have happened in our lives. Now tell me, are you happy or upset about it?”Ben hugged me and said, “Jens, you know I’m happy as hell. I always dreamed of having a family with. You never seemed quite the same, like something wasn’t there anymore. I suppose an adult would call it innocence. To me, you seemed emptier, less lively. Years down the track it was the same, all I can think is that somewhere, somehow, theres a world where you never lost your brother and you’re both happier there. High school came and went, both of us quiet kids, never really got into trouble. Studied a bit, decent grades, I’m sure you remember. You met Kelly in year 12. She was in her second.