Mom would groan and I'd use thelittle girl pout and smile until she gave in. Samantha had never beenlike that but then she was an adult in a child's b...dy. I was too but Iknew how to play mom and gran.I got them to enter me in beauty pageants, more expense, more acting andI was really lousy. The last thing I wanted to do was win. I just wantedmom and gran to drop a bundle of cash trying to help me win. I did thesobbing loser quite well. It also got me out of boarding at Maryville soI could keep. They were friendly, and talked about how they were celebrating their tenth wedding anniversary. They asked if we were married, had any kids, and a few other questions. We told them that we weren't actually a couple, and how we were on business. I told them I was married, and had two little ones at home. As the boat skidded across the water, waves gently splashing, we continued our conversation. There wasn't much that we didn't talk about. Once we got to the shops, we said good-bye. Jordan and I. She says something to Hank and then points over to me. She smiles at me and raises her glass for her to bring me another, I smile and fix her another gin and tonic. I walk over to the table with her drink...she knows I am standing there and for just a few seconds doesn't acknowledge me. Hank doesn't even offer my seat back. Sharon grins at me and tells me to have Jake bring her a refill. I walk back to the bar and sit down feeling slightly jealous Jake makes Sharon her drink and walks it over. Or Doctor Mercer in the past. And why we see Doctor Green. Jessica, you and I are MESSED UP. We need professional help.”“What about me?” Kara asked.I shook my head, “You are perhaps the most well-adjusted, sane person I know. Your mom was right about you all along. The only problem you had was two men who decided to put a straitjacket on you and control the free spirit that was inside you. I don’t know anyone as confident in, and open about, their sexuality as you are. You don’t see ME going to.