I'm not trying to condone what I did, but I just want you to know that I'm different now. God, I was so young and arrogant. I thought that every girl ...ould want to get with me. I know that my apology isn't worth much now, but for what it is worth, I've felt guilty for it every day since."Heidi found that hard to believe. "Why now? Why did it take you four years to come say something to me?" She tried hard to keep her voice calm, not wanting him to know how much this conversation was affecting. She went out with Mr. Brennen every Saturday night for the next three weeks and did not get home until two or three o’clock in the morning. I didn’t check but I was sure she was coming home without her panties on. I gave up waiting up for her.Mr. Brennan and my mother had been dating for over two months and I guess they figured it was serious enough to have a family get together. They invited me to dinner at the Oaks restaurant on Sunday evening. I’m convinced they planned it for Sunday so my. When I was really lucky she would let me make her late for work even though that meant having to help her on with the stockings all over again.I was so proud to be seen in public with this beautiful Black woman attracting stares from men and women of both races. She loved to lie around the pool in the later evening sun letting me rub cocoa butter on her, not just on her belly, but all over. She said pregnancy could dry your skin. I couldn't feel any dryness, but I loved taking the precautions.. " Nice, dude your mom's the best." Oh and honey your sister was just here she said she wanted to talk toyou about something." Alright cool thanks mom. Hey Jake take the snacks up to my room I'll beright back." Sure thing dude, this is sweeeeet."I went to my sisters room and gently knocked on her door, I wonder whatshe wants?"It's open come on in." Hey mom said you wanted to talk about something?" Oh yea I just wanted to thank you for turning down that game." Yea sure no problem." So what are.