"Lavon...this linerie cost me sixty five dollars...." she whispered. "I did not give you permission to speak! You will only speak when i tell you to!"...He growled at her. Sarah panted softly as she felt him lightly trace his fingers up and down her inner thigh. She felt her juices come out of her and she turned her head, embarrassed. She felt his finger lightly touch her slit and she cried out at the new sensation. "look at me." he said. She looked at him and her eyes widened as she watched him. The next morning I verycarefully selected what to wear. Full cut panties so he would not thinkthat I was an "easy," girl, the soft cup bra, a half slip and onepetticoat. Pantyhose of course, then the sundress. I liked the way itfit me. By the time I was done getting ready I was confident that Ilooked as good as I ever did. My hair was up in a ponytail, held with ablue scrunchie. My earrings were blue and white, and I wore the lowwhite heels. The time had come for me to see the doctor.Mom led. Either I am a full member of this marriage or I'm going my own way when we get to Oregon. I may go to California, since I know where some of the bigger gold strikes occurred. I hate the idea of leaving Claire and Elizabeth, but I can't stay if this keeps going on.God, but it's hard to get to sleep alone in my bed. I have been awake for at least half the night. I am writing this at the main fire after I gave up getting to sleep. I have to get some sleep though, because we are taking our wagon. Once it was in I gradually came around to feel the length of the dildo press into me, the pain was excruciating. ?You feel that faggot; yeah come on feel that dildo rocking against you.? He laughed and by the time I could think a reply almost five inches of it had been inserted. I felt a sickness turn in my stomach; it was strange like nothing I had felt before.?Ahhhhhhh, nooooooo, pleaseeeeeee.? I screamed but still he continued, forcing the giant fucker into me inch by inch. Eventually I felt.