I didn't say a word."I'm so sorry. I wasn't laughing at you. It was just that when you said that you miss being needed, I thought that we are just abo...t as needy as you can get and still have hope..."She was so quiet that it took me a few moments to realize that she was very softly crying."Please don't cry. I know I'm not what you..." Thank you. I thought you'd hung up when I couldn't stop laughing. It only occured to me when I said 'hope.' My own name's become a curse. It's gotten so hard to. Don’t do this etc…” I told her ok, cool down. Then leave it. I will not do this to you again. Few days passed and nothing happened.One day my roommate told that “shall we change the maid as there is another maid who will cook for us at a cheaper price.” He left the decision on me. I thought to give it a try. That evening I bought a packet of Kamasutra condom and thought of giving a last try. When she came in the evening I told her the plans about changing the maid as she was a bit expensive.. I came and stood close enough to look over Mara's shoulder as Omar flicked through several dozen images showing his two wives, and of his nice c***dren. Though they lived in a village, and were by no means wealthy (he often had to work as a migrant laborer in other countries in order to make ends meet), his family seemed clean, happy, and well taken care of.Mara, seeing each of his c***dren (roughly half girls and boys), she brightened with enthusiasm. She complimented Omar on being, as she put. I am originally from the U.K. but moved to New York City in March of 2020 after receiving a job offer at a major television network. Later that year in September, I met my now current boyfriend Booker.Booker is six feet tall, African-American, quite muscular, is a Staff Sergeant who served as a U.S. Army paratrooper but now serves in the New York National Guard. Booker has this very authoritative, commanding but also charming and persuasive personality to him.We regularly go to gym together.