Kissed her neck and let me felt her boobs for a long time. I sucked her nipples and she was breathing hard. When I tried to go down, she says’ I wan... you to wait for the later” I thought I did something wrong because it was my first time kissing and feeling a woman. We continued to sneak and kissing each other on and off almost every day and I was happy even though we never had sex yet. She kept on saying just wait till I’m ready, I wondered what she meant. Anyway, after waited six months the. “Is any of this actually sinking in?” she asked one day as she leant over my shoulder. We’d been slogging away for over two hours and my thoughts had been at fever pitch for most of that time. I just wanted the next half hour to be done so she’d go and I could rub myself to orgasm.I turned to look at her. Her face was where her breasts usually were and her smiling eyes were literally inches from me, looking right into mine. I don’t know what she saw there but we stayed frozen like that for a. One day dad gets a phone call from his old army body, Dennis Miller. He calls to say that he would be passing through our small town and that he wanted to drop in and see his old friend. I had met Mr. Miller a few years back when he came into town, dad’s army unit was having a reunion of some kind, and dad brought him by the house. I could not have been more the ten years old at the time. I remember him as being a big man, almost the same size as daddy. The day that Mr. Miller showed up on. A turned head, a lowered gaze, mumbled responses; that is how I greeted her yet still she persisted. 'Good Morning' morphing into who, what, why, when, where, how, so that my monosyllabic yes and no were rendered redundant.I relented. Allowing my brittle shell to splinter, accepting that she just might be allowed a small place in my world. And then she said it:"I watch you." I watch you watching them."I fled, scarlet shame burning my face. Found sanctuary in my home, hid behind bricks and.