. the pressure that she had felt in taking on the responsibilities ... for Peter's final education, keeping their home together...Marcus felt his hear... constrict as he thought about how alone she must have felt ... he wished so much that they could go back in time and that he could have been there for her ... to help her and hold her and tell her that everything would be okay...When she stood up to gather the pots Marcus stood too. "I'll just help you with the washing up, and then I'll leave. The damn thing had already been signed by his father. I smiled at him and told him that I needed to leave. ‘Yes, I will have Madeline show you out. I am looking forward to working with you on this project.’ I nodded and then he summoned Madeline to escort me to the main lobby. I followed her and thanked her. I had the receptionist call for a taxi which I took to the train station. Hours later I was back in my apartment in Paris. Sitting on the balcony with a cocktail, I pondered what the summer. She was so anxious that she didn't bother to lock the front door. The night was dark and clear and still, full of the voices of scampering children whose masks and costumes looked distorted and unreal in the dark. She walked the route she knew by heart and came to the little yellow house with the old fence and the beat-up sports van in the garage. A pair of fiendish jack o' lanterns glowed on the porch and for a heart-stopping moment she swore she saw the awful demon face of the one Ms.. Next, to my surprise, she pulled out the stirrups, like what are used for women’s examinations. She put my feet in the stirrups, and now I really felt exposed to her. Then I heard the razor, and felt the cool shaving cream on me. After a few minutes, she said, “I think your girlfriend will like this shaving job. It makes you look more exposed with no hair, and you also look like a naughty little boy. Also, I think you were a naughty little boy to have that erection in front of me, when I am.