’ ‘I wish there was something I could do.’ ‘Well, actually there is, now that you mention it,’ Jan said casually. ‘What’s that?’ Ja... noticed there was a bit of tension around Alex’s eyes as he said that. ‘I’m trying to get wi-fi in my house, and the darn thing’s just not working. I could trade you a proper home-cooked meal,’ she entreated. The tension vanished. ‘Sure, I can do that. Tomorrow’s Saturday, is that a good day?’ ‘Let me write down my address.’ ‘So cooking is your mad skill?’. I’m beat and I’m tired and I don’t want to even try anymore so go home,” I tell my son and don’t hear him moving,” You got what you wanted, you hurt me bad to make up for me hurting you by not being there and ruining your plans.” “I what, what makes you think that is ever what I wanted to do,” Guy asks and I turn to face him and I think my few tears surprise him. “Because every time I try you just drive a nail into me and I can’t fight back anymore,” I turn and quickly load a forty-five before. It means that she will be alone for quite some time and she wants me. I go to her house. The door will not be bolted from inside. I enter the house and bolt the door. I straight away go to her bed room. She will be waiting for me on the bed, fully naked, with a wicked smile. I remove my dress and lie by her side, embarrassing her. We enjoy the warmth of our naked bodies for some time.Then I slide down a little so that my face is between her big, soft, white boobs. I lie there burying my face in. Rain continues to fall, plastering my hair over my face across my tear filled eyes. Taking my hands to my face, burying my eyes into my palms, I start to feel comfort in the rain and wind around me. As if mother nature is holding me close, letting me know it’s okay to release all that I hold so dear. My thoughts turn to loss and loneliness wishing I could find this comfort also in people. The noise of the rain in the leaves fills my ears, the presence of another not even felt. My body jumps as.