:)Sunday, March 11th, 2007I slept in today like a lazy slug.I'm not sure why I keep writing all of this, I guess maybe it's a fewmoments of connection...to my old maleness that I really crave. This isthe only place anyone would "buy" my true guyness at the moment.I went to bed naked last night and DID NOT masturbate. I saw this as asuccessful experiment, I had some control still. This body is sowickedly soft and cozy on silk sheets, I slept like a baby.I tried a little experiment today. All day I. Id been kicked in the kidneys and my spine felt like a lump of led had been thrown at it, from inside. I was full of him, full to bursting and the deep angry pain grew even more as he began to ride me. Each pull became a relief, a small heaven, an island of refuge and hope as the pressure inside diminished and each push was an agony, a living hell, a wish for death and he seemed to get deeper with each thrust. Then Jalen was by my side pushing his hard dick at my screaming mouth. Will this. I thought of teasing him and started slowly rubbing my vagina which had already started getting wet and then I put one of my fingers of my left hand in my mouth and caught my left boob with my right hand and gave a sexy expression on my face. All these were arousing me too.I was really wet and started inserting my finger inside my vagina and started moving it in and out looking at his dick. He was also shagging his dick vigorously. I thought of inserting that dick in my mouth and sucking it. I got up and stood besides the railing and looked at the road below, he also got up and touched my hip. I was surprised and looked at him, he was smiling I also smiled and hugged him, we both were melting in each other’s hands, his hand was sometimes brushing my back, hips and also my ass. I looked in to his eyes and with a small smile kissed on his lovely pink lips; both were kissing each other with passion for at least 7 to 8 mins when we broke as I saw the light in the adjacent balcony being.