It is not that i was worried about losing her it was that i didn't want to share her at all.but i wasn't all alone either every girl in the school was...dieing to get 10 minutes alone with me. sarah was at my side every minute that we had together so no one was gonna get to me.one day after school i decided that i was gonna put another place on our list and we went into a bathroom and immediately stripped and were having sex. we didn't care if anyone found out either and no one did.we didn't know. It doesn't mean I really want that!" I tried to explain.She looked away, "I was so shocked, you know. I was a virgin when we got married, I thought that's what guys wanted. I was grossed out by the fetish videos. I got angry, then sad, then,... I thought about leaving you."She paused, "I did not know who to talk to about this,... and then, Mark called to speak to you about some golf tournament or something. He sensed how upset I was and offered to come over to talk, since he is a psychologist.. "We'll see," said Mom. While we finished lunch and Dad put the picnic gear away Mom dragged me over to the mall. Surprisingly there was a clothing boutique showing the latest fashions with some very chic clothing on display. "Now this is more like it," mom said. Here we go again, I thought, as mom coerced me into the shop, saying, "You may as well have the full experience being a female, and this is a big part in any woman's life." Looking round inside, Mom made a beeline for the dress. Whatever happened at this meeting, the fleet soon was sailing on southwards. I had assumed, hoped might be closer to it, that we would be turning for Philadelphia and dry land. I might have a chance to escape there.We sailed south for about another two weeks during which time I learned about sea-sickness as the winds turned very contrary, and the frigate I was on showed its ability to move in at least three directions at once. By then the captain had given me certain menial tasks such as.