I was worse for wear having drank too much, but I found my role as voyeur part enthralling, by her beauty, youth, and desire, but tinged with jealousy... as she offered a youthful version of myself, but my low went deeper, as I found myself strangely excited, having noticed that my lovers penis, was erect in his pants and my daughters hand had brushed it a few times, they were both aware of each other sexual state of arousal, in fact so strong was their desire for each other, they had banished me. The first mate looked confused, but withdrew without comment. His eyes lingered on me as he shut the door. I was a woman on a ship full of men. I could feel the heat of their desire beating at me. *** -Daniel- Maria’s eyes darted back and forth between Jon and myself. She looked nervous, like a whore who knows she’s poxed. But I didn’t detect any fear directed at me. My revelation that I knew her secret might have rattled her, but she still trusted me. It must be all the crew members. She. . we should do it when we're scheduled for swim. It should be, at the least, a mixed swim with the guys ... And we DON'T tell Lisa or Pete ... They've really stuck their necks out for us already; if Hartwell finds out they were in on it, he'll have them fired so hard, they'll never be able to get a job anywhere, anymore."Linda, organizer extraordinaire, took the ball. "Karen, Heather ... This afternoon, I imagine that Ginger and I will be in the naval battles. Would you tell Thomas and Henry to. Once again, I have forgotten about the life my body protects and how precious it is. Precious, the word feels ill-used. It would probably benefit the human race, if I let my baby die. But I know I can’t.Submissive Selena and Defiant Selena both make way for the New Mother Selena as the reality finally sets in. No more selfishness, from now on I need to think about my baby first. I look up at Asmodeus and command that he release me. I refuse to be held like a criminal and fed like a child now.