A thought comes to my mind that I have been wrestling with for years. "Jenny," I say slowly, "Can you help me answer a question?" Of course, Monique, ...nything," you reply.My thoughts are swirling like a whirlwind. I'm trying to formulate a concept that has eluded me since childhood. I speak slowly and hesitantly, "What...am...I?" There, the question has been asked and I anxiously await your reply."Why you're a compassionate and caring human being," you respond tenderly."No, I mean what kind of. Then.Thanks look forward to it.Bye.Oh God. Am I blushing? Feel like a silly schoolgirl being asked out. Doyou think this dress is OK? It's a posh restaurant have to look good. Ohgod, no Jewelry. Borrow your earrings and necklace, yes please.What do tell Pet?No, I don't need a sedative thank you!!! Even if you are a doctor, justexited.He is rather handsome and rich. That is a top restaurant, veryexpensive.Cucky, well Pet isn't yet. You know what we agreed as girls. Never giveout on the first. ..”“She’s gone, Mam. She’s left us.”There was a cry, and a muffled exchange before Gwen’s father came on the line.I’m so sorry boy,” he said, his voice taut with emotion. “How did it happen?”“She gave birth no problem,” he answered, trying to remember each detail. “They put little Bethan on her tummy and Gwen smiled at her and said, ‘Isn’t she beautiful?’ Then she looked worried and said she felt strange and closed her eyes. The nurse pressed the emergency button and the team arrived. I had to. Judging by the partial darkness on some of the building it looked like a phase had blown on the electrics somewhere and that usually meant the lifts stopping. Still, I was inside the building and managed to climb the stairs to get to the fifth floor before the twenty minute mark.Opening the landing doors, I saw that the car was between floors and so I carefully opened the car doors.“Hi. Lift engineer. Soon have you out,” I said loudly and confidently.“Where the fuck have you been?!” came an.