. when i first dressed as Ana no one was interested in me i was shy and i was still trying to find the right look for me... one night i decided to go ...o a party and find the drunkest boy i could.. i entered and saw a boy sitting on the couch alone drinking more than most around him.. i walked up to him hiding my face asking how he was, and we had a very fun conversation , but i remembered why i was there.. i was driven to being a whore and desired the feeling of love.. i layd my hand on his. We'll do this again.' I felt churlish and incomplete and unattractive.'Why'd you wanna do that?''Just trying to dig through the dumb.' She handed me the other crutch. 'C'mon. Food's getting cold.' She walked beside me as I crutched and stumbled over the turf. She didn't appear to be dragging her feet like most people did, and she didn't spend all her time checking to see if I was going to fall. She seemed to take it for granted that I wouldn't. After a thousand years we reached the rug and I. Aame denginchukoni 18 years ayindanta.(18 years mundu ma grandfather chanipoyaru). Adi vini chala baada paddanu. Yela vunnavu inni years ala ani adigite. Anduke kada ipudu korukundi time waste cheyaku anindi.ante maa ammamaki 18 years kasi teerchudaamani decide ayipoyanu.nenu mundu muddu pettanu. Tanu chala cooperate chesindi.ala oka 10 min chesanu. Tanu mundu nannu dengara tarvata chesukundam ivvanni anindi. Sare ani nenu tanani nagnanga chesi nenu nagnaga vundim poya. Ante tanu 6 inch modda. ’ As I hang up the phone a sigh of disappointment escapes me. I know it will be a fair while before you get here. In need of something to occupy the time until you get here I turn the stereo on to my favourite radio station and wander from room to room. I decide to write you a letter, telling you how ready I am for the next step. I grab some stationery from my bedside drawers and curl up on my bed. Pen in hand I start to write, all the words that I have been keeping inside flowing on to the.