I let him and felt the ecstasy of submitting my sexuality to another human being. A man, whom, I trusted and loved like no other in my whole life. It ...as enlightening to give up total control of your pleasure - to know that your desires were at the whim of another. Every waking moment was filling with horny desires and thoughts about what we had done, and fantasizing what my son was going to do with me next!Even before he started to use words of possession with his mother - calling me his. I held it out and was about to drop in into his open hand when my empathic senses finally got through to me that something was very wrong with him."Alex, are you feeling okay?" I said, trying to capture his eyes with mine."I'm feeling fine. Can I hold it?" he said, his eyes never leaving my hand that was holding my coin."How's Wally doing? He was pretty upset about you going away for... " Wally's fine too. Are you going to let me see it or not?"I was starting to feel something more than just an. I walked so slowly, pausing at times. I wasn’t alone. Others walked the path too. Not a big line of people, but enough so that I was never completely solitary. Despite that, I felt alone. We were of two different worlds, I realized. They walked in one that I could never return to no matter how far I traveled.They passed me carefully, respectful of my pauses, of how slow I traveled. I can only guess at how long it took me to reach the center. 45 minutes, perhaps. Once there, I simply sat,. Why you did what you did, as you said. Ithink it would be useful to spend some of our future sessions, includingthe hypnotherapy ones, exploring and helping you process this a bit more.Not today, though," she added definitively. "We'll end things here fortoday. Before you go, however, please take this," Miss Stevens continued,pressing another Anxigen tablet into my hand. "It's the least I can dofor causing you such distress." We can skip the gym today, too," Marcus added, his voice resonating.