. After a month we exchanged our numbers and started our conversation on phone. Again after some months we started liking each other so much, then i p...oposed her and she agreed. After three months of relationship we were so desperate to meet each other. After six months that day came and i went to her city where she was studied. She came to receive me at station. We both were so happy to see each other. Then i went to nearby hotels to find a room for me and i got a very good room for very low. I still love him. I never stopped loving him. It was just that after what happened I could never kiss anyone again. I was ... dirty.He cried out and pulled me closer. He forced his lips to mine.I didn't resist. I couldn't fight him. But I didn't return his kiss."You aren't dirty," he sobbed. "You're a victim. You're a victim because I'm an ignorant asshole. This is my fault. I fucked up in Vermont. I had trouble dealing with things. Unfortunately I didn't realize what was important to me until. One of the men at the table kind of sputtered, and said, "My Gawd, ya are fast! I thought sure he had an unbeatable edge." The main reason that I wear a shoulder holster is that I can draw fast from it whether I am sitting or standing. This boy did not stand a chance of beating me, as I would have explained if he had given me a chance."Another of my poker-playing friends said, "Well, that were a clear example of self-defense ifen I ever seen one."The marshal happened to be at the bar talking to. I myself, always ate lunch alone sitting in the restaurant. She always took her meal order to go and was always accompanied by the same female friend, whom from observations was likely to be her coworker. Her ambiguous behavior kept me at distance. Nevertheless, I patiently waited each passing lunch day for her truth to manifest itself. Two months later of secret stares and glances my way, on a chilly Friday in November, she came into the restaurant alone ordered her meal and sat at my lunch.