So I made a test for myself.What I'd do was, I'd block out all sexual thoughts about guysfrom my head for a full day. If I could do it, it would mean ...wasn't gay. If I couldn't do it, that meant I'd have to work onnot being gay, which would be fine. I knew I was young, and Iprobably could change whatever sexual leanings I'd picked up sofar. I mean, I was a smart kid.Being a smart kid, I also knew that by not letting myself thinkgay thoughts, I was kind of forcing myself to think 'em, likewhen. By then it was around two am, we were both getting pretty tired. Before anything else happened; Jack got dressed, kissed me lightly and left. I locked the door and flopped in bed. Within the amount of time it would have taken my lover to get home; my phone rang. “Sorry Bobbie…I know you’re tired…at least as tired as I am dear. Look…damn…I’m sitting in my garage with another erection.”“Oh damn Jack; what do you want to do…want me to do?”“I’m hard as a rock and in pain; I mean real pain. Will you. I think Susan is planning on demonstrating her rifle skills in a couple of days — and I'll make sure it isn't on Juliette's backside. Ann is trying to show you how grown up she is by being nice to Susan." Well, that part is working," Jacob answered. "I'm pleased as hell about how she's been acting." You should make sure you tell her that," Marnie prompted. "I saw what you did when you gave Susan her horse. I saw that you made sure Ann knew you weren't playing favorites and that there was a. Her blue eyes were bright as she looked up at me, her lips open. I gave her another quick kiss, then looked over at her friend.Janna was breathing deeper. “Are you feeling alright, pretty girl?” I stroked her back, bringing her closer to me.“It’s - just different.” She shivered as I ran my fingers through her hair. “The man he - he didn’t hurt me but it was scary. He blindfolded me -”I put my finger to her lips. “It’s ok, sweetheart.” I kept my eyes away from Lori, but I could feel her eyes on.