In one encounter I remember her opening the door with a beautiful yet revealing white nighty where I could see her cleavage and I just couldn’t stop...myself from lusting at her beauty what a work of art I thought to myself as I walked into her house and further thought to myself , why the fuck would anyone leave her ?I sat down and had some water and snacks and she asked me how my work was going pretty much general stuff.Her son was asleep and she asked me to wait till he gets up and I can watch. Dressing in skirts was for girls and sissy queers. I was raised to be astrong man, a strong heterosexual man. We don't have these urges. It'snot for us. It's for the fags. I couldn't have raised one. I figuredthat even if my son liked girls, he'd never get one if he put on askirt. He'd just fall into the gay circle. I had to put a stop to itbefore he turned gay, just like my parents did for me.When I was a kid, I was attracted to girls. Too attracted it seemed attimes. I wanted to be there. This could drive me mad. If I lost this — this pinnacle of my career — to my enemy, it would drive me insane.’ You’re already there, Greg thought. But decided he’d better get Jay back on track. ‘Okay smarty, what about our inspiration. How are we going to work on keeping that at its peak?’ ‘We need a model. A muse.’ ‘Well, yeah. But there are no full figured models. And we can’t create one out of thin air. Have you planned for this?’ Greg couldn’t help the snide tone his questions took. He felt. "Just remember what I told you before. You have to live with your decisions." Mom, do you think it's wrong for me to feel like I do about Glen?" I don't know, Meg. How do you feel about your brother?" I love him, Mom. I've always loved him, but this is different."My mom gave me a hug. "I don't think love is wrong. Just don't let it cloud your thinking. Remember, you two will have others in your lives. If you or Glen gets jealous, it will destroy your relationship. You two are young. .