I’ve also learned that abusive men often feel guilty after they abuse a woman and try to make it up to them, so they won’t leave him, but end up d...ing it again and again.”“I’ve learned my lesson Claudia and want to be a better person. It will take time though to prove to you that I have truly changed. What can I do before we go home to start proving it to you?”“Pull the covers down so you can see me.”He pulled down the covers and saw Claudia standing there naked. He was in shock. “Why are. Introducing my fingers inside me felt like the natural first step solaying face up, I brought my knees to my chest and opened my legs wide,then I moved the thin strap covering my anus to the side leaving it openedand available.My right index finger was the chosen one, I covered it in saliva andreached down between my legs placing it over my anus to massage at theentrance. After a couple of minutes I started to apply pressure causing myanus to give way and the first phalanx slipped inside me. All that's happening to us now... I'm not sure anymore.I have to talk to her.I can't stay in this... this limbo, where I don't know where I stand with her. I love her. I'm in love with her. In every possible way. I can't help it. I wish I could. But I have no idea how she feels about me. I mean... I never thought I had a chance, never deserved a chance. And then after... when she said she felt something... I thought something would've happened, that things would have changed. But they haven't.. I loved her; she was so warm and nice to me. She said she needed to talk to me. Jerrod, my boyfriend, wanted answers, answers I couldn't face him with and talk to him about without really hurting both of us.Janet spoke to me first, "A.J., we've been good friends in the few months that I have known you. I'm here to hear your story. You have to let it all out to someone and I promise to keep it a secret unless you tell me it's alright to tell someone. I will tell you that no matter how bad it is,.