"Mom?" Helen turned around to see me standing there, I held my head high,smiling. "I've decided that if Mrs. Stiles can help me become Diane in thetru...st, and fullest sense of the word, then I'm ready! I lost Mom and Dad,Sharon's moving to the college, and I'll be damned if I'll let myself loseDiane! And you....Mom."Helen rushed forward to accept hold me, as a daughter, a real daughter,one that she knew she would be proud of. Holding onto each other we becameas one, of one mind and one heart,. I have always been attracted to women, but around age 10, one of my friends’ older sister had sex with her boyfriend in their basement and had left a pair of her silk bikini panties behind a sofa cushion. I had gone over my friend’s house for a sleepover and found them during the middle of the night. They were black silk, string bikini panties with bright pink hearts all over them and a delicate lace trim. They were from Victoria ’s Secret. I had a very big crush on Denise (my friend’s. Let's get you outfitted and then we'll go out."I had a thirty-two automatic with holster and she demonstrated its operation to me. She knew more about guns than she had said! I had opened my gun closet and she was nosing about.She pulled a shotgun from the rack. She said, "I like a twenty if you have magnum shot for it." I nodded and handed her a box of shells. She loaded the shotgun chambering a shell and set the safety. I took a nine-millimeter with holster, loaded it and put it on my belt. I. Well, back to the computer.”With his biggest bucket full of not-quite-boiling water, he set about dunking one end of the turkey while holding its legs. When the feathers seemed to pull free similarly to the way they had with the turkey on the video, he upended the bird and soaked the other end while sloshing it up and down in the water.As he jerked the feathers loose, he tossed them onto a hide scrap to dry. When he had enough – if he ever did – he would try to make a feather mattress.With the.