The unfortunate men shambled off the truck and lined up for inspection. Their shackles and handcuffs were checked to see that they were securely faste...ed, and then they were led to their bunks inside. Each bunk served as the prisoner’s dining table, and a trusty had laid out a sumptuous supper of corn pone and fried pig fat on a tin plate. Boss said that prisoners on the punishment detail were not allowed to use their hands for anything but working and wiping, so the men had to kneel and eat. I am sorry. It is just that when you touch me, I do not wish to control myself. My entire life has been that of me controlling my wants and desires. Ever since the death of my papa, I held back from those around me, remaining both untouched and unloved. I listened and watched as everyone lived around me. I have hidden behind a mask, pretending that I did not want the same things other women wanted, but I do want them. Actually, I want you, Erik! My body aches with its need of you. When you. I think it`s important to explain to you why I have these desires in my life and what has shaped my sexual behaviour over the years. When I was very young I lived in the USA and lived a fairly opulent lifestyle, however my parents offered little in the way of parental advice as I was developing into a young woman, I was generally left to my own devices to come and go as I pleased. When I was just 15 I became friendly with the older son of a family friend called Mike who at 19 was four. After about an hour she came back down stairs and said he is waiting up stairs and she said she would talk to me. /She said he really needs the money and he promises to take care of anything we ask him to do.I looked at her and said you act like you have a crush on him. She smiled and said well he is really cute. I asked her if she really wanted him to have the job. She kissed me real passionately and said please!. I told her ok, but just cause I love you so much.She ran back up to Dennis and.