November 2006 Carey I am in the bathroom with my hands trembling as I look at the pink of the pregnancy test. I cannot believe this is happening. Seve...al weeks before, after I had been doing school work from early in the morning to late at night for quite some time, I decided on the spur of the moment on a Friday that I needed a break. I called Tyler who was also working crazy hours and we ended up getting a hotel room late at night midway between New Orleans and Baton Rouge. We had several. Muss wohl was wegen der Schule sein."„Wer denn, Mama?" fragte Tobias leise.„Sie sagte Antje. Hat eine blonde Mähne."„Kenn ich nicht." Neugierig betrag Tobias das Wohnzimmer, in dem der Besuch wartete.„Meike? Was soll das denn?" fragte Tobias überrascht, als er die junge Frau sah. „Warum denn die Verkleidung und der falsche Name?"„Kannst du dir das nicht denke, Tobi?" Meike nahm die blonde Perücke ab und zeigte ihre langen braunen Haare. Ich wollte nicht, dass deine Mutter mich vielleicht. .." My mother trailed off, seeming rather upset at me, her disappointment of a son. The doctor looked me over and I still was covering myself with my hands. "I'm sure it's nothing to worry about. In my 25 years as a doctor have seen penises of all shapes and sizes, let me have a look" when the doctor said "let me have a look" my mother looked at me and saw that I had covered my genitals with my hands again, and she gave me an incredibly powerful, hard slap to my buttocks which I'm sure left a. Zax was a mere youth in his fourteenth year of life and already killed, sometimes against his will, sometime without even considering it. His conception was to "Kill for survival" and it still was after one month of pondering about it. However Zax did comprehend why it was important for him to look at death this way.It was not the first time that he noticed it, but in the past month he found a different angle to look at it. When he came up with "Kill for survival" concept, it was to reason with.