I place the noose over my neck and smile.I hear the clocks chime midnight: it's my thirtieth birthday. I stepforward into the unknown, and extinguish ...y life as easily as acandle.Suddenly I'm sitting bolt upright, gasping for air. Everything looksoddly unfamiliar. I feel the oxygen rush into my lungs, and noticewith disdain the tears on my face. There's weird absence of painaround my neck. It makes me panic, want to hyperventilate. It feelsnormal. Healthy. I feel uncertain why I expect it to. Upon completion he pinned me to the wall with his body and spread my thighs and started to finger me. I know better now than to try and struggle so I went to put my head on his chest at which point he pulled my hair and just looking into my eyes and smiled. He whispered in my ear that he had another surprise for me and that it was going to be a first. He lead me by my hair to the other side of the room and cuffed me to one of the support beams. He than proceed to blindfold me.I heard him leave. The party winds down so Katsu and Lars eventually head back to his place. He knows that he is the envy of all the men tonight as they know that he will be fucking the tight package that they were eyeing all evening. Ethan had even approached Lars about making it a threesome, to which Lars dismissed quickly.Katsu is a great lover and they enjoy their sex together. They spend the evening working one another into a steamy state. Then Lars fucks her for several hours before they finally fall. What could I do? I had no choice but to let thedetestable creature into my flat and let him to do those awfuldegrading things to me.The act of fellatio he'd forced me to perform on him was revolting. Notthat I hadn't imagined doing such a thing; I had. In my dreams thepenis I'd lovingly sucked and caressed had been Peter's. He had treatedme like a woman with care, affection and respect and yes, love. Therecollection of taking Norman Dyke's disgusting, stinking appendageinto my mouth almost.