“Do you… that is, have you ever done anything more naughty?” ‘Oh not again!’ I thought. He said it in such an unassuming way though, I didn�...�t feel uncomfortable. “I have a bit yes, but just personally you know, my girlfriend takes them.” He looked surprised when I said ‘girlfriend.’ “Your girlfriend?” He said. “Yes Adam. I’m into girls.” “Oh. I thought..” “I know what you thought Adam. It’s OK don’t worry.” He looked at me again, but he didn’t just look at me, he was obviously undressing me. It was the frist time ever I felt wanted .I remember seeing his cock for the frist time. My frist thought was wow that is so big. He had a 7 inch cock . All I wanted to do was to have it in my mouth but I did not not know how to please a man; but Paul was patient and was willing to let me practice on him. All he said was beware of your teeth, lol. So I ran my tongue up and down his cock and I took it into my mounth. Mmmmmmm. I can still taste his pre-cum. I licked his cock clean and God I loved. Be alive. Be wrapped in your arms. Be loved. Be beautiful. Be bashful and giddy and shy and cute. I am deprived of all of this when you are not here beside me where you belong. Every moment I feel like my heart could burst from sorrowful pain. But it won’t. Being apart doesn’t kill you like it should. It should just instantly kill you and stop the pain. But merciless departure only laughs and slowly kills you through smoking and depression and binges. Death comes on soft slow wings. I can not. He attended meetings, completed reports, but his mind strayed often to what lay ahead. He didn't know what Sheryl had in store, only that she had promised to surprise him. Anticipation was sweet and as morning waned into afternoon he savored each advancing minute. Sheryl's hotel was not far from his office, so at 4:00 PM he left the office to walk over. The day had grown hotter, the pavement sending shimmering heat waves back to the sky. The rush-hour crowd hurrying to commuter trains and.