We always had our own lives going on. From time to time one of the family members just left for some weeks, even sometimes for a few months. Then it w...s dad’s turn. He just went out to buy himself some cigarettes and disappeared into the nowhere for the better part of a year.We three, my mom, my sis and me, back at home were used to it. We had found several creative ways to keep on paying the bills and put some food on the table. Without getting drawn into one of these nasty boring nine to five. My arms felt numb and I couldnot scratch my leg. I was almost too much to bear. After a while they followedme back to my bed ? still in the jacket. I was placed sitting with my backagainst the wall. It was warm and Istarted to sweat. When it started to itch on my back, I tried to scratch it byrubbing my body against the wall. It did not go by on unnoticed. ?We are notgoing to let you hurt yourself by banging your head against the wall. Stop it.? ?But I was only tryingto scratch my body.? ?It is. I admit I was devastated, and collapsed in herarms, crying like a baby, while she just stroked my ever lengthening hairand told me to calm down in a firm tone. She made me take a hot bath,patted me dry, and fixed me a cup of tea. As I was drinking it in thekitchen, my son came in and shot me a look that said: "You pathetic wimp.How could my mom have left my dad so I'd have to put up with a pussy likeyou."?The next morning, another huge shock came. We were getting in thebathroom and Lisa, now a. .....I'm not flamboyant or extrovert. I'm amicable. I respectothers. And when I am outside I feel a little taste of freedom.DOUBLE BILLI'm a big movie fan. As I said earlier my dream is to work in the filmindustry, and I've had a couple of close calls. Maybe foolishly, I'm 47,and still chasing a childhood dream that began when I was 6 years oldwhen I saw Jaws at the cinema.After a couple of shopping trips, I decided the next time I went out Iwould watch a double-bill at a nearby movie theatre..