I knew only time would tell. He was on a life support machine. I sat with Dave; I kissed him he didn't even blink. I cried sobbing into his chest, it ...ll seemed like a bad dream, and that every thing would be back to normal very soon.The nurse came and comforted me. She told me to "go home and get some rest you will need all your strength to help Dave get through this", I knew there was nothing I could do, and the children needed me at home. I gave Dave a kiss and said, "See you tomorrow babe.". From a vending machine, I bought a boiling coffee in a styrofoam cup. My fingers burned holding the cup and the taste, when the liquid had cooled enough not to singe my tongue, was foul. A nurse, passing by, spotted me curling my lip after taking a sip. She smiled and said, “Awful isn’t it? Best just to have the cold water. And that’s free.” “Thanks,” I said. “Think I’ll do that. I couldn’t possibly drink this muck.” She carried on walking away as I left the unwanted coffee on a table. I got a. What? I am not commanding you, I am giving you permission. You will sniff her butt on your own. It is what you crave. And, you have permission. It is what you want. It is what we want. It is what she wants. Sniff her butt! Shadi struggled. Anguish consumed him. Do it now, Shadi. This is your only chance. If you do not sniff her butt now, you will never have the chance again. Do not miss out. Sniff her butt or she will leave forever. Sniff, Shadi. Sniff her butt! The young young girls began the. There was also a sealed envelope from auntie, which he advised me to read in private.It didn't hit me until we were half way home that Paul was left with nothing and that now he would be employed by me. He didn't seem upset by the results of the meeting or act any different from his usual self, so I left it alone for the time being.I opened my Auntie's letter later that day in the privacy of the chicken coop. It was a place where I was used to come and sit when I wanted to reflect or read in.