I would wonder what it would be like to be used in such a way, the idea of it excited me.A short time later I started to frequent the local public toi...ets after rushing inside to pee and finding porn magazines on the dirty floor. I would go to them often hoping to find more, staying in the cubicle for a while to looking at the dirty drawings and writing on the walls.One time I found a pair of womens pantys on the floor, tried them on, and wanked in them, from that point on always wore girls. The information was then sent to one of the detectives in the Criminal Investigation Branch (CIB) to determine if more needed doing.Doug got pissed at me when he learnt that I added my own pages of observations and listed evidence that he hadn’t seen as important. I was supposed to do this as his support officer, and it was part of my training. Doug didn’t agree with me because he said that my reports made him look bad at his job. I wasn’t silly enough to tell him that he was.I’d also mentioned. I experienced that in business, and it was true that I did favors for friends and they did favors for me, but there was no expectation of any specific response, except to ‘be there’ for each other. I was, though, at a loss to TRULY explain it. It had to be experienced. Maybe drawing a parallel might help.“Do you think I love Birgit or Jesse or Ashley or any of the kids because they do something for me?” I asked.“No,” she said in her ‘little girl’ voice.“Then how are you any different?” I. After getting caught a few more times, one of the mall cops threw us out. It was fine with me, because my parents thought I would be there for the rest of the day. I could go home with Jackson now. After I told him, Jackson knew what I was getting at. He was happy about it too. When we got to his house I already knew his dad wouldn't be home, and his mom had ran off. It wasn't hard to figure out why he was so fucked up in the mind, but it was one of the things I loved about him. I went straight.