I think I accepted from my heart also him as my husband.Then the again drinks started Vicky winked at me. I went to the kitchen and took out 2 pills a...d put it in his glass and prepared a drink myself for my husband and gave it to him and told him this is the last one for you. Vicky said not to stop him today as tomorrow is holiday you people can be late tomorrow and smiled at me. Husband drank the drink in single stroke and felt drowsy. I was little scared as what will happen. Vicky came near. I must have stayed in that position for well over half an hour. He was rubbing his sweaty, smelly feet on my neck, face. I think; I needed to be treated as such and be his foot stool, absorbing the heavy odor of him into my body. My mind was going numb and I think, I heard him ordering me to face him and his feet once again came to my shoulders. With his legs raised; I could easily see his huge bulge bursting out of the shorts, as he scratched himself. I wished to stay there, forever. He was. Everything.But somehow, near the very bottom of my plunge, I foundthe words I needed to stop it.To give in to despair is the greatest betrayal of all.Betrayal of self. All men die in their time, and itisn’t the when, it’s the how one dies that matters. Anda man with nothing left to lose has absolutely nothingleft to fear.I think I lost it a little at that point, because I wassure I had a fierce grin on my face when I faced the twoof them and dared them to do their worst.The elder. Rose was very nice to me and I’m falling in love with her. I just hope Kara won’t get mad or jealous.At 5 when the club opens Rose told me I’ll be going on at 7, so Kara and I went into the G rated part of the restaurant to eat.After we ate we went back into the strip club. I sat there watching the other girls do their routines; I was getting turned on and very nervous.It was now my turn to get up on the stage, I had them play a guns and roses song, sweet child of mine. There were a lot of men.