You always told me to wait until i was eighteen, and i'm tellingyou now what i told you from the start. i could not wait. i know i would have been sav...d from all this pain if i could have started to bea girl then. But the specialist, oh the specialist that supposedly knew itall told me to join a gay group, which was the final blow. i knew, deep in myheart that i wasn't gay. i like girls and always will. For a long time afterthat i was totally defeated. My hurt and pain turned into. I entered into Kate and Natalie’s room. Nat had not spent much time sleeping in there since hooking up with Mat. Kate had moved to the lower bunk after her ‘abandonment’. Curled up in a ball, she hugged what looked to be one of my pillows, given the color of the pillow case on it. My sheets were a light gray, hers a pale teal.“Hi.” Two tired eyes watched me sit on her bed by her knees.“Hi.”“I heard that the big evil guy tried to tempt my favorite Saintess away, to play for the bad guy. The main problem with the solution is the people who make up the Bond Group will have to go outside to move back and forth between the homes that form their Group Home. That will be a major inconvenience at night and during bad weather.“Her second solution is basically the same as the first solution. The difference is she will have construction crews build hallways between the residences that make up the Group Home. Then the Group Home will essentially be a single interconnected structure. The. So, Connie, I know you mean well but I don't think you should make light of it because you can't know how she felt unless you've suffered it yourself, can you?" Er —" began Connie, and paused.Alarmed, I gripped her by the arm and looked her straight in the eye. "Connie," I asked gravely, "have you been raped?" I'm not sure," she replied.Fran and I exchanged perplexed looks. "How can you not be sure?" I asked."It's like this," explained Connie. "Back home in Ghana, I suppose I must have been.